If you're worried about CHANGE, this one is for you

Navigating seasons of change and growth

Hi there

I feel so happy I can write to you again.

Now, I’m writing this letter with all the love in my heart.

Story

Recently, I’ve been in a weird space, and navigating it is like floating:

Navigating two jobs in a field that feels like a never-ending loop of creativity.

Two days ago, I felt so locked in my head that I went out for a walk around the town I grew up in. You see, it’s hard for me to manage old friendships, but recently I’ve been getting the boldness to reach out to old friends. It seems like I’m searching for something to exchange with what I’m currently feeling, and I can’t describe it.

There’s a part of me that wants to be in a new space with new adventures and another part of me that wants everything to stay the same.

I want to step out more and at the same time, I don’t have the energy for socialization.

Some nights, I find it hard to fall asleep and my mind roams about seeking for other activities to do.

I think about how much I don’t want to work. Some days I just can’t work. I think about the times when I used to have hobbies.

I’m slowly accepting that I don’t read anymore and taking my courses is becoming challenging.

I want to leave, and at the same time, I want to stay.

I want to hide, and at the same time I want to step out and “enjoy moments”.

I’m becoming more aware of the decisions I’ve taken so far and even the important decisions I need to make moving on.

I know I need to pause and figure out what’s happening but it seems like I am in the middle of responsibilities and finding a space to leave for a minute is tough.

I figured, all this was because change was coming; I could tell, and I am fighting it.

I’ve been quite reflective these days:

• Thinking about all the events that led to this place I am now

• Thinking about how much more I need to do to get to where I want (which is Italy by the way, don’t mind me 😂)

• Letting go of memories I’ve held strongly

The process

I honestly have no tips for you on navigating this. All I can say is what I am also doing: Just go through it.

It’s okay to go through seasons like this when you start to question everything you’ve built over the years.

It’s funny how our journey in life is not a straight line, it’s not straightforward at all, but in the end, I believe it will all be worth it.

Currently, I’m questioning everything and standing in the middle but I still show up.

For you:

No matter what happens, you can always show up for yourself when everything is changing: You have to. Showing up one step at a time might just be the way to navigate change.

I’m open to hearing anything you think I can try in the comments. It’s quite a weird space I’m in, the funny part is not being able to express or explain properly what’s happening inside my head and heart.

No learning update section today, no events, no resources. Just Destiny Felinah 🤎